Treading water....

I feel like I'm stuck in some alternate dimension where there is no up or down. It's like I'm in limbo, just existing. The worst part about it is that I know that just existing isn't what the intention was when I was given my life. Whatever this rut, trance, slump, or what have you is, I need to snap out of it. How can people depend on me if I can't depend on myself? How can I love someone else if I don't love myself? I realize just how good I have it, yet I don't enjoy it or try to improve on it. Not to wish harm on anyone else, but I shouldn't be typing this rubbish. This is for somebody else to write. This just isn't me.